Lost in the Unknown

so much has happened with us.. we are not sure where to begin or end.. the picture above shows and describes well exactly how we all are feeling right now.. least for most of us..

some of our sessions with our t have not gone as well as we wanted them to.. we feel a loss in there.. like something has shifted.. like something in the t and client relationship has shifted.. we feel she doesnt keep as much contact with us like she use to.. weekends when we are away from everyone its our hardest time.. she use to be able to check in with us.. that doesnt happen anymore.. she use to keep in touch with us through e-mail or IM.. that rarely happens anymore.. and in our sessions she use to be able to spend a little extra time there.. that doesnt happen anymore.. in ways we can understand though because she has other clients and a family life to take care of.. something we dont have.. but it leaves us also feeling somewhat rejected or as if we did something wrong.. or that we ask for too much.. maybe we do..

last week was a really hard week for us.. i, Kat, overdosed last Sunday night.. i did it very numbingly.. at this point right now.. i feel i dont care that i did it.. im saddened that i can even screw up on an overdose.. but fact still remains im alive still.. and here to face things.. on last Tuesday we went to Mamas gr*ve site.. it was her 2nd year anniv. of her passing.. we didnt get to stay long cause our t had to leave.. i had things built up in me i wanted to say and express.. but i knew by the time i started to share them she would be heading out.. so i pushed everything back down inside me and held back my tears.. went back to my numb stage..

you see theres a story behind mamas passing.. when she died.. her sister Dot blamed me for her death.. she said i stressed her out so bad that i killed her.. i have blamed myself for mamas death ever since.. i have deeply felt that i deserve to be in jail and to be serving time for killing mama.. Dot would not allow me to go to mama viewing or funeral because of all this.. i never really had a chance to say "goodbye" to mama in any way at all.. but ive lived with the guilt of killing her for 2 years so far now.. and the words of Dot echo in me every single day.. and while mama is rotting in her gr*ve i feel i should be the one rotting away down there instead.. i dont feel i will ever be able to forgive myself for killing her.. i want to turn myself into jail but my old t said they would never take me because i didnt do anything wrong.. i dont know.. i feel i did..

this week we also found out one of our cats named Marky has diabeties.. we now have to give him insulin shots twice a day.. this is so draining on us.. we love our cat.. but the medical exspense of it has emptied us out.. we are not sure how we are going to make it.. we dont feel we have much understanding and support about this issue regarding our finances right now and the cost of Marky added to it.. seems others just dont understand our limit and what we can offord.. we just feel so lost, burdened and stuck..

last night.. i, Kat, found myself in that numb stage again.. while i was getting my medications out for the night.. when i was putting them in my hands that passing thought to add more to my hand was there again.. i stood there with the bottle tilted and my hand held steady under the bottle.. i was frozen.. numb.. i dont know what or why i keep getting the feelings and pushes to add more pills to my hand.. i mean i know i feel overwhelmed with life right now.. i know i feel worthless and that people are not really there for us right now and that things really wont even change.. what sort of makes me a little nervous is what will happen when i stand there too long with that bottle tilted and my hand steady and more do fall into it.. and im in that numb stage.. frozen.. with no care like before.. and i do it again.. and i dont wake up the next morning.. and that next morning would have been the day something special something would have changed in our lives.. that next morning someone would have really honestly cared about us and giving a little extra time for us.. and honestly reached their hand out to us and did something a little extra special for us to show they actually "loved" us..

we are so use to people saying they will do this or that.. or they will take us here or there one day.. but nothing ever happens.. we have learned not to get our hopes up anymore.. so many people have made promises to us and broke them that when they promise things now we almost laugh when they do it now.. cause we know its not going to be the truth.. we know its not real.. but deep in our hearts.. it breaks us down deeper and deeper.. and litterly hurts us more and more.. specially the littles.. who heard so many of those promises in younger years and were always broken.. they never wanted it to happen in present times with people they know, love and adore nowadays.. we try hard to protect them.. but even we fail at times..

we are all tired.. moody.. on edge.. unsure.. lost.. nervous.. and feel as if we are running here and there and everywhere.. we all want to be focused and working on the same page but we arnt.. theres just too much going on and too many mixed feelings from so many within.. we are lost in the shuffle of the unknown.. with what feels no way out right now.. and we cant survive this way nor function like this.. something has to happen.. we are just not sure what yet..

K n all

Weeble Wobble Family on the Go

well.. we are back.. still not quite steady on our feet yet but we are back.. things have been totally chaotic for us.. like one slap in the face after another.. we are worn.. very tired.. struggling.. at times dragging our feet but still moving along.. just a little slower than usual for us.. instead of us being able to work on several things at one time.. right now we are only being able to look at maybe 1 or 2 things at a time.. and just barely toss them back and forth without dropping them both..

we did not expect things to turn out this way for us at all.. this was just so unexpected.. and as we seem to keep crawling over these hills we keep losing our footing and slipping back down into one another.. then having to start over again rethinking about other ways to go about it all..

one clear thing we know right now.. is we all want out of this pit we have slid into.. this is not the way we were meant to live our lives.. and the chaos is just not for us.. we love for peace, hope, harmony and freedom.. we strive to acheive just that too.. and some of us are deeply sadden because we feel as if those dreams we have.. have been stashed away in a box out of reach somewhere..

today we had a t session.. our t mainly worked with one of our younger inner ones named lil one.. lil one has been struggling also quite a bit.. she is 7 years old and suffered some deep trauma like many of us.. the session with lil one helped.. lil one is no longer hiding away in her box but instead she is out looking around.. shes not quite fully herself again yet.. but at least shes not hiding away..

we know that there are quite a few within that is needing some help right now.. and if they dont receive that help things will be heading downhill for us even much worse than it is now..

we have one named jesse.. she is 15.. she got upset must of been a week or so ago now.. and she ran away within.. shes not been heard from since.. we all deeply miss her.. we know that weighs heavy on some of the ones within.. we want her to come home safe and sound and soon.. shes part of our family.. and we are not complete without her..

the holiday of H*llowe*n will be coming upon us very very soon.. it is a extremely triggering holiday for us.. holds many horrifing memories for us and we are sharply triggered by all the decorations that are put out by the public and in stores.. makes it hard to go out anywhere or even want to leave our home.. to many memories of the rituals are brought up within and we fight the images we see, smell, taste, hear, feel and remember.. making it all much to real.. that we pull back and shut down without realizing it.. just happens so fast..

this month also holds the 2nd anniversary of Mama passing.. (not the birth mother).. "mama" was someone we "heart" adopted as a mom.. she was the one and only person we ever had in our life who showed us and taught us what a real loving mom was suppose to be like.. one who loves you tenderly.. consistantly..
she had myasthenia gravis disease.. she had it since she was 19 years old.. plus she had so many other things she suffered with.. this woman was one brave lady and one true survivor..

scary part is that some of us have not been able to face her passing.. lil one just thinks shes hiding out there somewhere playing hide and seek with her.. and she begs and begs for Grama to come on back cause she just cant find her hiding spot..
we have only been to mamas grave once.. that was when ( i Kat) could only stand there numbingly and stare down at it.. then suddenly kick the dirt on it and frustratingly say "Your Not In There!!! , Nothings In There" ... then i ran away from it and just wanted to get out of there..

never again did we go back.. thats been almost 2 years ago.. well.... on Sept. 25.. our t and us will be going there together.. we are nervous.. we are not sure what will happen or how we will react again.. it will be 2 years on the 25th that shes been gone.. guess we will find out - wont we?

K n all

Verbal Abuse & How it Can Hurt

we havent been posting very much because we have been going through a hard time with a situation in our lives.. i have done much thinking.. i made some decisions for my life and our system that is going to make things much easier for us.. and i am so thankful that im back in my right mind.. several changes have happened in our lives and in the Forum we run.. and we are pleased with them..

with the help of some "truly special friends" we are able to move forward now.. with the wonderful support of my t, case worker and care provider we have gained the strength back in ourselves that we thought was lost.. we are standing firm and head held high and nothing will knock us back down from here..

you see.. we had this old friend that reminding us alot of the birth mother.. with her ev*l ways of attacks.. her non stop insults.. constantly putting me or my inner ones down.. or saying horrible things about them.. i was somehow sucked under her control over and over again.. but not no more.. in public places she shows a completely different side of herself.. but behind those walls.. or in those private places.. in emails.. in PMs.. she attacks full force.. with hate spitting from her mouth..

at times this old friend would be nice, somewhat supportive and use ways to get me to believe she would always be there for all of us and listen.. what we did not know is it came with a big price on that friendship.. if i was to say something this person didnt like or agree with.. she blew up and totally went off on me.. humiliating me the best she could.. twisting words around that were said.. and even putting words in my mouth that i had never spoken.. she did this to not only me but to my inner ones as well.. this is what you call...... VERBAL ABUSE.. one of the worst kinds..

we will no longer take any type of abuse from anyone.. we have drawn the line and now have our eyes WIDE OPEN.. the Forum we run does not support anyone who is abusive to others in any way shape or form.. and we are going to go to the extreme and make sure it stays that way.. if you are being verbally attacked by somone in our Forum.. i ask everyone to inform me ASAP of the situation because it will be taken care of just like was with the old friend who harmed us.. its time all of us survivors pull together and remember where we use to be and where we are not now and not to let ANYONE put you back in that old place again.. taking a stand against abuse is what all of us need to be doing..

and right now.. we Our System is at the front of that line....................

if anyone is verbally abusing you.. get out of the relationship or friendship now! i promise you it only gets worse and worse until you are sucked into their nasty bite and you will end up severly harmed and hurt.. getting away from an abuser like that is your only choice..


my love to each one of you whom we can trust and whom we know love and care for us..

K n all

Letter to Our T

Dear C,

when you came into our lives we didnt realize how much of a difference you were going to make for us.. we didnt realize how much we were going to accept you as part of our family.. and how much you were going to help us.. the way you greet us with a smile everytime and lift our spirits.. the way you listen to us with total understanding and an open heart and the way you seem to continually care about us no matter what..

we didnt realize it woud hurt so much when you were not around either.. that part we havent figured out why it happens yet.. maybe its because its what we've longed for in a person before.. not sure..

you are such an inspiration to us.. you bring us hope that we could not find.. hope that we did not have.. that we just could not see.. but so dearly needed in our lives..

when there are times when we are really struggling.. you are there.. times when SI thoughts are bothering us.. you are there.. when flashbacks are hitting us hard.. you are there.. you dont have to make yourself available during these times but you do.. even times at night.. when one of us calls you stuggling.. you are there..

there has never been another T like you that has made herself available like this for us before.. it has really helped us be able to move further in healing and learn to trust you more.. we just dont think the words "thank you" could ever be enough to say how much we appreciate you.. you have a special place deep in our hearts.. but if "thank you" could say it all.... then... "Thank You C, For Everything You Do in Our Lives. You Mean the World to Us."

(((((((((((((((((((((((( HUGS )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

From AllofUS to Our T, C

For the Next 2 Weeks

we cant help but wonder how things will be for us for the next 2 weeks while our T is out of state on vacation.. things within are so mixed up and confusing for us right now.. with her leaving, it leaves us feeling sort of alone and scared and unsure..

it brings back feelings when our last T moved away.. we know our current T says she coming back but how do we know that for sure.. we feel like just closing our doors and locking them and staying deep inside till we know she is back.. yes we are pretty much scared stiff right now.. silly? yes.. but its how we feel..

yesterday we had lunch with our care provider, case manager and T to celebrate the bodys birthday.. it was the last day we would be getting to see our T before she left on vacation.. when it was time for us to say bye to her we didnt want to.. many were so sad inside.. i, myself, just wanted to cry.. but i didnt.. i held myself together so she wouldnt know.. i didnt want to seem like i couldnt handle it.. but yet i sit here now.. with tears in my eyes.. feeling so odd.. with overwhelming sadness and a deep aloneness filling up in me..

we have gotten to where we trust our new T.. and can talk to her.. and share with her private things in our lives that helps us overcome the battles we need to.. and for the next 2 weeks we will have to bottle those things up.. hiding our faces from the world so no one knows we are not ok right now.. it was ok to us for us to let our guard down with our T.. but we still have concern letting our guard down with others in the world..

if we could just remain asleep during the time she is gone it would pass by so much faster.. but we know we could not sleep for that long of a time.. what are we going to do? what do we do with this deep sadness? if only we didnt care so much it wouldnt hurt so bad.. if we could only shut off our feelings.. but we cant..

we feel lost.. just totally lost right now..

K n all

Prayers of a Young Child

with her face smushed up into the dusty screen of her bedroom window she use to picture King Kong storming through her grandmothers backyard.. she was never sure if King Kong was coming to save her from her home of torture or coming to get her.. her heart pounded in fear.. she would race from her bedroom window to the front screen door.. peering through it.. watching as King Kong got closer and closer and people below ran for their lives out of his way.. sceaming in terror..

tucked under her arm was a very large Mickey Mouse.. who at that time was taller than she was.. she would drag his feet on the floor as she ran back and forth to each window.. watching and waiting in fear for what this disturbing creature might do..

these were the dreams of one of our littles named, Lil Sue.. who is 5 years old.. every day Lil Sue would sit on her bed.. looking out her bedrooms dusty window.. praying that God would take her away.. away from the pain she suffered at home by the hands of her parents.. she would then turn and talk to her best friend.. her Mickey Mouse.. and tell him all her fears.. begging Mickey Mouse to come to life and help her.. to show Mickey how much she loved him she would even dress him up in her clothes and wrap him up in her favorite Strawberry Shortcake blaket that her Nanny made her..

every day she went back to her window again and again.. feeling more hopeless.. feeling as if God was not hearing her cries for help or that maybe she was not loved enough by Him to be helped.. while everyone was sleeping.. she sat awake.. with her face breathing in the dust from that dirty old window.. waiting for some sign that He was there and coming to save her.. but nothing ever happened.. many times she fell asleep against the window screen.. with dried tears on her face..

Lil Sue's dreams of King Kong proceeded to get worse and worse.. to the point where she tucked herself away inside and didnt return till the body was an adult.. she had given up on God saving her from the pain of the abuse and that He loved her..

She stay's hidden under a bed inside now.. fearing to come out.. tucking herself away from the outside world.. we will never know the reasons why we were left in the abuse we were.. but we have come to try to focus on the fact that we survived for a purpose.. and we are here for a reason.. we hope to one day know..

Lil Sue may never have her answer if King Kong was coming to get her or to save her.. maybe King Kong was coming to get the family for what they were doing to us.. maybe King Kong was mad because they were hurting us and it was Lil Sue's way of expressing it since she couldn't.. we will never really know..

what we do know is she is a very special little girl and very loved by our System.. and we are proud of her for helping us making it through..

Peace, Love & Harmony to all..

K

Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

this song by kelly clarkson is one i play and think of the mother only.. when i listen to it i get feelings of frustration, sadness, confusion and small amounts of anger..

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

the mother made alot of mistakes (not saying people dont make them).. but raising your child up with abuse is an awful big mistake (could add more to that but i wont).. the mother still to this day feels she never did anything wrong.. therefor she has never apologized for any of the times she raised her hand to us or the sisters.. or when she made us take of our pants and panties to get spanked with belts.. or when she choked us and while saying all kinds of cuss words spitting from her mouth in our face.. seems like all our life so far all we have wanted to hear were the words "I'm sorry" from the mother.. but i believe its something we will honestly never get to hear..

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

the mother was the one who we should have been able to look up to.. share things with.. talk to when there were bad days for us.. and receive love, hugs and comfort from.. but because of the constant abuse and hurt we received from her we feared her.. we learned to fear everyone.. we never knew when someone else would hurt us like she did.. we never could trust anything she told us.. or anything she was doing.. or sometimes when she left if she was even coming back.. we feared her every move.. if fears us to hear the voice of the mother even as an adult now.. and we do every day in our memories & flashbacks we suffer with.. fear is installed in us because of her..

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

while growing up she made it an issue to point out our every mistake.. our every accident.. to tease us.. mock us and constantly threaten us.. when there times we had felt like crying or showing emotion she walked away.. or would not listen.. even when we knew we were sinking into a pit of despair.. she turned her back and walked away and would not listen that we needed help.. if tears came she glared at us and got angry.. there were a few times when she slapped the face and said sharply "stop that" or "knock it off".. we learned crying was not allowed.. showing any type of emotion besides "happiness" and "im ok" was not allowed.. because of her..

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

though the birth mother for us is still living.. we feel in our hearts she died.. that the only chance we had for a loving, caring mother is gone and taken away from us.. we grieve hard over this.. while growing up the mother and step father fought a whole lot.. the mother often talked to us about their problems and looked to us (her daughters) to lean on for support.. for us it only brought confusion.. while one night sitting in the bathroom floor of the mothers she sobbed and sobbed talking about the step father and some huge dispute they had.. we were confused and just wanted them not to fight.. we found ourselves scared to get up and walk out of the room.. scared on what she might do.. not only to us.. but to herself.. or if she would leave in the car and never show back up again.. so we sat there with her while she just cried and talked.. we were much too young to be the ones to lean on.. but we ended up being the ones taking care of them instead of them taking care of us.. if only she would of taken the time to find out what was going on in our lives and had some interest in that part too.. then maybe we wouldnt be so messed up today.. because of her..

Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you

because of everything the mother has done to us we do try very hard to forget.. and forget everything.. but its like we cant.. we live the nightmares of our memories & flashbacks almost on a daily basis.. we isolate ourselves from most of the people in the world.. scared of being judged, criticized, hurt and abused more.. its painfully hard for us to allow people in our lives.. we have such walls built up around us.. doing something new.. going to new places.. meeting someone new is almost out of the question for us.. but we are working on trying to get better with this.. our life back then and today has never had many people in it.. too scared to reach out.. we often feel very alone but feel we are safer to be alone than possibly hurt again..

Dear Mother,
You taught us many things.. most of all those things was how to fear you and how to be ashamed of ourselves.. you've wanted us to lie all these years and believe in our hearts that what you did was right and that there was nothing wrong with it.. but what you did was very wrong.. it was down right abusive.. in many ways.. in many of the things you did.. and ive only ever mentioned a few.. we are proud and thankful we made sure that we did not follow in your abusive steps and ways.. nor will we ever.. we stand proudly against all abuse and will carry no more secrets.. for you or anyone else.. thank you for teaching us how to be aware of people.. we are sure it will come in handy when we are around others we do not know.. thank you for teaching us about judging.. we are glad we do not judge others as you have done us.. thank you for all your criticism you have given us.. it only helps show us that we are not as bad as everything you've told us we are in our past.. and thank you for everything else you've done.. you showed us that life can be hard when you have parents like you.. but when the right decisions are made to break off the ties that it can be much better.. only because of you dear mother..

Dreaming2Fly System

With Him.... There is Hope

With Him.... There is Hope

There's a place beyond I’ve ever known
That’s filled with peace of mind
A place where all my fears can go
And have no need to hide
My heart how light
And sorrow none
Just to sit in His peaceful sight
And know that in His willing time all things will be done
But patience was never easy for me
As He knows that very well
To close my eyes and just believe
To have faith and everything else
He understands my heart of hurt
As I am learning His
He gently takes me by the hand
And leads me down the way
Not really much concern
As to what I should or shouldn’t say
So, I sit here now
Side to side by Him
I know that safety and all trust
Relies and dwells with Him
To give my heart fully
And just believe it’s done
To turn my eyes to Him
And wait for Him to come
To Believe, have Faith and Trust…

© Copyright by Megan w/ Dreaming2Flys System

5 Reasons Why I Love Jesus

keepers has tagged us on "5 Reasons Why I Love Jesus." so now it is our turn to share about 5 reasons why we love Jesus.. which we woud love to do..

1. Jesus loves unconditinally.. we have never been able to find that in anyone, anything or anywhere.. but we have tried.. we have searched.. and never had any luck.. Jesus has been the only one who has been able to do that.. we know others may try but they are only human and things happen in life that can not be helped.. we love our Jesus for this and thank Him for all the love He gives to us each and every day of our lives..

2. Jesus is forgiving.. we are grateful Jesus does not focus on our faults and that we have such a loving and forgivng Lord.. that when we make mistakes we can ask for forgiveness and know we are forgiven for them..

3. Call on His Name.. when in times of trouble it eases my heart to know that all i have to do is call on His name and there He will be.. that He is there to guide us and comfort us in every way.. when in prayer where 2 or more are gathered that He is there with them.. He knows all needs.. He knows all cares.. but He loves it when you call on Him and spend time just talking to him..

4. Never Alone.. even at times when we are at our lowest and feel no one cares.. He cares.. when we feel like we are all alone in our sadness and no one in the whole world could possibly understand how we feel.. He does.. Hes experienced every emotion theres ever been.. Hes been through every possible thing anyone could of ever gone through.. He does understand.. thats why when your at your lowest point just talking to Him will help.. He hears you.. and Hes listening, cares and loves you..

my # 5 is special to me.. its because of a promise he makes to us..
5. Promises us forever in Heaven.. if we believe in Him and trust in Him he promises us forever with Him in Heaven.. to walk down the streets of gold.. to live with Him forever.. in peace and happiness.. no more sorrows.. joy will be in our hearts forever.. these are what we long for.. this is what i search for and one day long to have with Him.. sitting by Him.. in peace..

K

A Day to Celebrate!!

today has been quite an exciting day for us cause today is our inner system's Celebration Day/Birthday.. for several years now our inner system has chosen to celebrate their day on another day besides the birth of the body.. many in our system wouldnt even celebrate on the bodies birthday because it brought back too many memories that were painful for them.. so around 6 years ago we decided to let our inner ones decided on a day that would be special for just them.. a day they could celebrate being who they are and a day that there would be no pain attached to cause of ones past.. Six years ago this was the day they picked..

we also celebrate how much they have grown and changed over the years.. reminding them how special each of them are and how loved and appreciate they are.. since doing this we have seen ones within begin to be able to open up and blossom.. ones who never smiled would be seen with a smirk or half smile on their face while listening to jokes or being praised for something they accomplished.. ones who hid all the time now venture out of the corners within and peek out.. sometimes saying whats on their mind and heart..

it has taken a long time for ones with our inner system to see theres no fear in your age or not knowing your age or with some in our system, not even knowing their names.. we have surrounded them with love and comfort whether or not they have a name, an age or any of those little things.. some though have ages and over the last 6 years have aged in them.. as they were ready to grow a year older and felt safe an comfortable enough to want to do that.. this is such progress for them.. to see they are becoming healthier and stronger.. making better decisions and thinking responsibly for choices they do make..

they spent the day with our care provider and our t enjoying their special day.. eating cake and opening presents.. when nap time came around the body was tired enough to sleep for a couple of hours cause we were so worn out.. the day is not over yet though.. they got 5 new movies from our t and im sure they will want to watch 1 of them before bedtime..

id like to say to all our inners ones.. to the Bigs & Kids in our system.. Happy Celebration Day and Birthday! this is YOUR day to CELEBRATE!

Love you to the moon, stars and back again!

K