An Article We Would Like to Share

this is an article from the Daily OM and it really touched us today and brought a smile to our faces and hearts.. its something we needed to hear and read.. and we would like to share it and pass it on to everyone else..

A Good Turn DailyHelping The World Every Day

Each of us is more than capable of helping the world, despite our fears and limitations and the uncertainty that holds us back. It is commonly accepted that it is impossible to make a difference without unlimited funding or free time, yet most healing, cleansing, and spreading of joy is accomplished in a matter of minutes. If we vow to make the world a better place one day at a time, the true significance of small good deeds reveals itself to us. We come to see that we can be of service without dedicating our lives to recognized charities or giving up the pleasures we enjoy. The warmth we feel when we help the world is only a tiny part of the affirmative transformations that take place when we make altruism a part of everyday existence.We make our homes, workplaces, communities, and countries better and brighter when we think positive thoughts that echo outward, give donations of time or money, smile at everyone we meet, and lend those in need of aid our assistance. As we learn, we inadvertently improve the universe because we can only be truly involved when we are informed. Even enthusiastically sharing ideas with others generates positive energy that then serves as the motivation for more tangible change. Selfless and helpful deeds remind us that we exercise some degree of control over a world that can seem chaotic at times. Even the smallest of such deeds is a demonstration of the fact that we are capable of changing the world in a positive way. So much negative energy is generated by the suffering, pain, and close-mindedness we are regularly exposed to, but we can counteract it in a constructive way by thinking and acting altruistically when opportunities to do so arise. Helping the world often takes no more than a moment, just a wish for the world is a beautiful gesture and can be done by even the busiest of people effortlessly. The gift you give each day need not be grand or attention-worthy because the broader benefits are the same no matter the literal repercussions. Once a day, you can affect reality, and you can reap the rewards of knowing that you are making the world a better place, day by day.

this really stood out to us.. that we, "WE" can make a difference.. even in the smallest, simplist ways.. just a smile.. or just helping someone or even just by donating things we dont need, use or that others may need.. this has helped open our eyes and mind to new ideas and ways we can make a difference for others and in the world.. even if sometimes it is just a smile, wishing someone a good day or a making a connection with someone and sharing a conversation with them.. it just might change their day in some way.. you never know..

so.. to make a start..

AND

K n all

Things That Matter to Us - Part 1(Dreaming2Fly)

we dont think we get enough chances to write about the things that matter to us.. so tonight we are going to spend that time doing just that.. and anyone who wants to contribute within our system will add their own in Parts added onto Our Dream to Fly Blog..

as for me, K or Dreaming2Fly there are many things that matter to me..
-for one our entire Systems within do.. and all within them..
-my birth children..
-the people who supprt us like:
-our t, C..
-our community support provider, M..
-our case manager, K..
-our online friends who are so kind to us..
-the forum i run matters to me and its website..
-the blogs i write in matter to me..
-the well being of my birth family matters to me, even though we may not always see eye to eye..
-my cats matter to me, a whole lot and the proper care for them..
-helping others matters to me..
-helping others understand and learn about depression, MPD/DID, flashbacks, SRA, PTSD, triggers, self-injury, coping skills, DBT, ways to self- soothe and more matters to me..
-help stopping child abuse, domestic violence, and rape completely matters to me..
-finding happiness matters to me..
-learning when to reach out to others and when to do it on my own matters to me..
-learning when to trust and when not to matters to me..
-becoming more comfortable with my surroundings matters to me..
-learning to accept i cant do it all the time, that i need breaks..
-learning not to judge myself so harshly..
-learning to give others a chance..
-learning to accept that others really do care matters to me..
-learning that just being "me" is not so bad, matters to me..
-learning that its ok to say how i feel and what im feeling or thinking matters to me, even thought it can be really hard at times..
-learning that its ok to be angry matters to me..
-my hardest one is trying to learn not to shut people out when im having a hard time.. this does matter to me..
-its hard to say this.. specially right now when things are so bad.. but... i think my life matters to me.. im trying for it to matter to me..
-it matters to me if the sun rises and sets each day..
-if definitely matters to me if its cold outside..
-people who are ill, sick or dying matter to me..
-people who are sad, alone, lonely, grieving, hurting, lost, scared/afraid, or in any type of emotional pain matter to me..
-learning to be a better person matters to me..
-learning to get better matters to me..
-learning to overcome where i am now... it matters to me.. i dont like being stuck..
-learning to accept help.. matters to me..
-learning to listen matter to me..
-moving forward matters to me.. i know i may stumble back sometimes.. but we all do.. then we dust ourselves off and continue onward..
-finding the light in the end and not staying in the darkness matters to me..
-learning from your own lessons.. and not repeating them.. thought it may not be easy at first.. but you'll get there.. it matters to me..

im sure there is plenty more things that matter to me.. but this is my list so far.. if i think of more i will make another writing for myself with a Part 2-Dreaming2Fly

K (Dreming2Fly)

my 2 cents.. nobody ever said it was worth much anyway..

theres just a few things i want to say.. though they may not be encouraging to anyone but.. im sure we all have those time when we are not our best.. dont we?

first.. giving up doesnt always mean you are weak.. sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go!

have you ever been hurt.. and the place tries to heal.. and you just pull the scar off it over and over again?

to me relationships are like glass.. and to me sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together..

maybe part of loving.... IS.. letting go.....

i never knew how bad it could hurt to lose something... i never really had in the first place.. i only "thought" i had..

sorry to be such the downer.. but thats my 2 cents for whoever cares..

K

Our Heart-Broken Child

for a while now we have been trying to help one of our littles within named lil one.. she has gotten to where she isolates herself away from the other littles insides and will sit in her room within and suck her thumb and rock and at times cry.. our t has been working with her trying to help her get past this stage.. lil one has shown signs of anger by throwing things.. destroying others property.. hitting.. and yelling..

she started showing all these signs after we had made the trip to visit mamas grave site (lil ones grama).. for many years lil one believed grama was still alive and just hiding.. that grama was playing hide-n-seek with her.. lil one fully believed that one day she would find grama or that grama would return to her.. and they would be reunited.. the visit to gramas grave set in confusion for lil one.. and brought many questions.. lil ones questions were answered with pure honesty and reality.. that grama was not returning.. that she was in heaven but that grama would live forever in her heart and that grama loved her very much.. this upset lil one to the fullest.. she questioned how grama got way up there to heaven.. she asked if grama had fairy wings and flew like a fairy.. some of these questions were hard to answer almost.. lil one stayed confused..

in the end of it all lil one felt the only way for her to be with her grama again was to end her life the way I,Kat, had tried to not long ago by OD'ing.. so lil one had it in her head that by taking my medications it would reunite to with grama.. when our t and i found this out we had to set up supervision for lil one.. almost non-stop.. its been very wearing on us.. but worth it.. finally after much work with our t lil one promised our t not to go looking for the medications anymore or to touch them.. we are hoping lil one means to keep her promise.. we kept her under supervision last night.. one of our ones within who is 8 named lynn said lil one came out for a little while to draw a picture to send to our t then went back within to her room.. lynn said she didnt talk much to her at all and did not know what she drew.. that lil one just wanted help attaching the picture to an e-mail.. that was it..

im hoping lil one being able to draw some helped.. today she has been in her box in her bedroom.. something she hides in at times when shes not in good shape.. ive been able to hear her sucking her thumb in there.. but nothing else.. my concern for lil one has not lessened at all.. i still am extremely concerned.. and deeply wish i knew how to help her.. i know the grief ive had and suffered for mamas passing.. its been overwhelming.. i cant begin to imagine it for a 7 year old who pretty much has lived in a dream world that her grama was still alive and out there and come to the shock that all the sudden shes not there at all.. and hadnt been for 2 years..

my heart goes out to lil one.. and i really hope she can pull through this safely.. we are all waiting and watching.. guess right now only time will tell..

K n all

If Only It Would Rain.......

this saying is so true for us.. its much easier for us to hide our tears in the rain cause no one can tell their there.. they just think its raindrops on our faces.. we can hide our tears so much easier in the rain than the sun shine and when we are standing face to face in front of someone..

sometimes we find it embarassing to cry in front of someone.. almost like we should feel ashamed of it.. when we can ease around a corner of darkness or bury our faces in our pillow and pull up the blankets and allow the tears to flow we find a little more safeness doing that.. as long as we still dont make any sounds with our cries..

who taught us that we had to be so quiet when we cry? that even a small whimper sound would be forbidden and wrong? that we should be ashamed of that type of sound coming from us. we wonder what it would sound like for us to really let a release of emotion out.. safely.. and would we be looked upon in shame and disqust if we did..

what makes us think we have to hold it together or stuff our feelings within so much.. not share.. is it fear we will be judged.. beat? tortured? locked up somewhere? not believed.. or not loved for "who" we are once we've let it all out.. once we "shown" ourselves..

If Only It Would Rain

if only it would rain..

we could reach within ourselves..

we could release this awful pain..

thats stacked upon these shelves..

if only it would rain..

we could walk amoungst the crowds..

we might could feel less of al this shame..

things within might be less and less so loud..

if only it would rain..

Copyright by K n all

Erupting Volcanos

today in during our sesssion our t had us build a volcano out of Playdough.. we picked the colors for it.. we used yellow, green, dark pink, red, and tiny, tiny bits of white.. the base of the Volcano was yellow.. then we added a next higher level of green.. then next higher level of dark pink.. then closed a sealed topping over it with red.. we put tiny, tiny small pebbles of white around the bottom base of it here and there for little white rocks...

she then brought around some people figures.. some real little rocks.. little alligator figures.. an Alf figure and 2 rubber frogs..

for the people there was 3 or 4 children.. a dad.. a mom.. and a grandmother..
she asked us to place these anywhere we would think they would go..

well.. we added the rocks to the base of the Volcano.. then the rubber frogs to climb on them.. and the alligators not too far away from them..

then we placed the kids close to the Volcano cause kids are always curious about things and wanting to check things out and see.. so we placed them right by the rocks.. standing towards the Volcano..

we placed the parents way off somewhere else.. no where near the kids.. since parents usually never keep an eye on their kids like their suppose to.. we put the grandmother to the side with some extra rocks sort of like she was messing around in a garden.. and the Alf figure we put him far away and said he was at home in the kids bedroom..

our t then made a hold in the center of our Volcano.. and placed some baking soda in a small cup shaped thing.. and poured water into it.. and it made the Volcano erupt.. the water seeping down was to be the lava exploding.. it would have gotten the children, frogs.. aligators and all on the rocks.. and further if it hadnt of been sheltered in..

we then talked about words describing a non active Volcano.. and an active Volcano..

we talked about if we could place this Volcano we were building anywhere.. where would we have placed it.. we told her on the mothers bed..
we then talked about the Volcano within ourselves.. what signs are there before and after the Volcano erupts within ourselves..

we listed many many different signs..

we learned alot from this today.. and we believe our t did also.. it was really interesting to do.. and to hear ourselves easily come out and say all these signs of things we do was almost shocking in some ways.. it just kind of flowed out of us..
in a way it was hard work but good work.. we are glad we had a chance to get to do this experiment today..

have you ever thought about erupting Volcanos before?

even your very own erupting Volcano within yourself?

could be something to think about.....

K n all