with her face smushed up into the dusty screen of her bedroom window she use to picture King Kong storming through her grandmothers backyard.. she was never sure if King Kong was coming to save her from her home of torture or coming to get her.. her heart pounded in fear.. she would race from her bedroom window to the front screen door.. peering through it.. watching as King Kong got closer and closer and people below ran for their lives out of his way.. sceaming in terror..
tucked under her arm was a very large Mickey Mouse.. who at that time was taller than she was.. she would drag his feet on the floor as she ran back and forth to each window.. watching and waiting in fear for what this disturbing creature might do..
these were the dreams of one of our littles named, Lil Sue.. who is 5 years old.. every day Lil Sue would sit on her bed.. looking out her bedrooms dusty window.. praying that God would take her away.. away from the pain she suffered at home by the hands of her parents.. she would then turn and talk to her best friend.. her Mickey Mouse.. and tell him all her fears.. begging Mickey Mouse to come to life and help her.. to show Mickey how much she loved him she would even dress him up in her clothes and wrap him up in her favorite Strawberry Shortcake blaket that her Nanny made her..
every day she went back to her window again and again.. feeling more hopeless.. feeling as if God was not hearing her cries for help or that maybe she was not loved enough by Him to be helped.. while everyone was sleeping.. she sat awake.. with her face breathing in the dust from that dirty old window.. waiting for some sign that He was there and coming to save her.. but nothing ever happened.. many times she fell asleep against the window screen.. with dried tears on her face..
Lil Sue's dreams of King Kong proceeded to get worse and worse.. to the point where she tucked herself away inside and didnt return till the body was an adult.. she had given up on God saving her from the pain of the abuse and that He loved her..
She stay's hidden under a bed inside now.. fearing to come out.. tucking herself away from the outside world.. we will never know the reasons why we were left in the abuse we were.. but we have come to try to focus on the fact that we survived for a purpose.. and we are here for a reason.. we hope to one day know..
Lil Sue may never have her answer if King Kong was coming to get her or to save her.. maybe King Kong was coming to get the family for what they were doing to us.. maybe King Kong was mad because they were hurting us and it was Lil Sue's way of expressing it since she couldn't.. we will never really know..
what we do know is she is a very special little girl and very loved by our System.. and we are proud of her for helping us making it through..
Peace, Love & Harmony to all..
K
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