Things Looking Up Some

its late for us.. an we are tired.. but we wanted to write before we headed off to bed.. we had another session with our t yesterday (friday).. we believe it went well.. we were nervous and actually scared to go into session.. so many things were running through our minds.. and so many within running in opposite directions within closing doors.. afraid they would be called upon..

throughout the session several of them within would crack their doors open to listen but wouldnt come out.. our sweetest lil one though hasnt actually been out of her room in quite some time.. not even here at the house.. she got a new Adora doll here for her to play with but she wont come out and play with her.. she cries off and on in her room within the body.. and we all know why shes sad like this.. but there is nothing we can do to help her feel better.. her heart has been severely broken someone she really cared for and loved more than anything.. all we can do is just wait and see if she comes out of this.. we've tried all we can for her.. our t meantion today about trying to do some work with her.. helping her so she wont be so scared when we go to the dentist.. we are just wondering how that is going to go over or even happen if lil one wont even come out for us or talk to us.. we have this dreaded feeling shes not going to respond to our t either.. but...... just for the sake of trying to think positive here.. lets hope she does respond to her..

i, Kat, also took a big step in talking to my neighbor last night about all the remarks shes been making about my weight.. i talk to her about the comments shes been saying.. i expressed it hurts when those comments are said to me and about me.. and i asked her to please not make any type of comments like those anymore.. and then i told her why.. where i had heard those types of comments from before.. and how much it brought back such painful memories to me.. i tried to hold back my tears.. but it didnt work.. at first she seemed angry.. and she responded with "i ought to just shut my mouth from now on".. i sat silently.. i let her sit there and really think about what i was saying.. that i wasnt speaking it harshly to her.. that i was saying it hurt.. but in no way was i saying i didnt love her still.. after about 30 minutes.. she had tears in her eyes.. she looked at me she said "im sorry.. i wont say it anymore.. i didnt mean it.." i said i know you didnt.. sometimes its hard to really think about the words we choose to speak before we say them huh?.. i told her it was going to be ok.. again she reassured me she was sorry.. then everything was ok..

i couldnt believe i stood up for myself.. that i actually confronted her finally.. after all these months.. and all these tears id cry over the comments she say about my weight.. i feel bad enough about my weight.. but.. its over.. now the mothers nasty comments hopefully will stop ringing in my head about them too..

well.. we really need to turn in for the night.. to all out there take care..

Peace, Love & Harmony..

K n all