Finding "Hope" Once Again...

after today.. we are truly beginning to believe this statement above.. inch by inch we really are beginning to find our precious "hope" once again.. we deeply know it will take time for each of us all to find it for us seperately.. but at least its a beginning for some of us.. and for those of us who do feel we are slowly beginning to find it.. it brings tears of joy, excitement, peace but with those feelings it also brings along tears of sadness that it was lost for so long, tears of how the hope in our lives was lost and dearly missed.. and tears of "will it stay forever this time.." the doubts.. the sensation of never wanting to let it go ever, ever again..

today we had a meeting with our case worker, t, community support provider and us.. the meeting went very well.. so much better than we had ever expected.. before we started the meeting we sat there balled up within so nervous and scared what was going to happen if we spoke up and said how we truly felt about things.. but once we finally started talking and vocalizing what we needed to talk about.. it got a little easier.. only at one point did i, Kat, withdraw back some, but then i eased back out again and was just fine.. we accoplished alot today.. and we are looking forward to our next meeting with them in 3 months only to share even more of more good news as we work hard on the skills and homework that will be given to us and as we continue to learn more and more..

we are proud we held it together today and worked as a team not only withing but also as a team with our case manager, t, community support provider and all of us.. it proves to us - we CAN do it and things WILL be ok and work out after all..

someone up there above really does listen to our prayers and hears us.. and knows how to answer them in the most awesome way.. doesnt He?

what an awesome day this was..

K n all