sad day for us..

today was a hard day for us.. the picture above was our cat Lil Bit.. this morning we had to take him into the shelter.. he has been sick and been getting worse.. and it would of cost over one thousand dollars for a surgery for him.. we didnt have that type of money.. we searched many types of organizations for they, but all of them were out of funds.. Lil Bit was suffering alot.. the only option for him left was to be put to sleep..

we are so sad this had to happen.. and just so shocked how out of all the places we have around here for animal help.. and every one of them do not have funds to help low income families with their beloved pets when it comes to emergency type things.. we are deeply grieving losing Lil Bit.. and feel as if we do not deserve anymore pets in our lives anymore.. this has crushed us..

it was so hard for us to ride back in the car with his carrier in the back seat and him not in it.. and then to come in the house and see all his belongings.. his toys.. his litter box.. his bed.. his pictures.. and other things.. ones within just keep sobbing..

me... i just feel numb... i dont know where my feelings or emotions are.. their locked inside somewhere.. wish i could of been the one they were putting down instead of Lil Bit.. all this wasnt Lil Bits fault.. it was mine.. i was the one who didnt take the 100% best care of him.. or he wouldnt be like this.. its not his fault..

K